Been A While

There's no excuse as to why I haven't been doing this, other than sloth. Today I feel gigantic and I needed to talk about it and my skinny hubby doesn't get it. At the moment it hurts to bend at the waist while sitting. It feels like all the fat is pushing in on itself and it's hard to breath. I've also noticed that sitting on my side hurts b/c the "back fat" somehow pushes on my rib cage. I'm not that large, this is very distressing. I have to hold my belly fat and pull it away from my body to get relief. Laying on my stomach helps too.

Today was cookie day at work. I had 3. One in the AM and two in the afternoon. Tomorrow is a Buffet lunch at work for a coworkers going away party. I'm excited b/c the sushi there is relatively good and it's a BUFFET! Also, there are not many calories to sushi, so I can fill up on that and then have the chinese food after.

I've been going to yoga every other week. I enjoy stretching. The other week though I hurt my shoulder and so I didn't want to push it so I didn't go this week (also I had to work late). Can you see the trend in excuses? Anyway, usually I go to the stretch yoga class and last time it was some other kind where I actually worked my Psoas muscle (the one that is atrophied and causing all sorts of problems with my back, butt and posture). I wish I had more money so I could go twice a week. *sigh*

On another note, we are trying to get out of debt (i.e. student loans) so we are on a monthly budget which I enjoy doing. However, things are slow at work, so we are hoarding our money just in case I get really slow. Although I've had and influx of work in the last two days. So I'm at the point where I have paid off the second of my 6 student loans, but I can't send the money in until I know things are good at work. We are doing the debt snowball (paying down the smallest debt first to the biggest) but hubby wants the next loan to be my biggest b/c the interest rate is more. While I understand where he's coming from the satisfaction of paying them lowest to highest means quicker gratification. I don't want to wait 8 months to celebrate the next loan payoff. We are at an impasse.

Speaking of impasses, when Dan and I have an argument, we never resolve it, we just agree to disagree b/c neither of us wants to give up our stance. This is not good, because sometimes the same argument comes up again and again. We are both so stubborn. Like with the debt snowball, I completely disagree with him but I'm doing it to make him happy. Hmmm...this blog is more of a rant today. I just needed to get some stuff off my chest (rather incoherently if I might add).

Donuts

Bob bought donuts at about 1 pm. A dozen regular ones and a whole box of donut holes. Do we really need a whole box of donut holes for 6 people? That is approximately 2 donuts and 8 holes a person. OMG! I can most definitely tell you I ate my share. I feel sick physically and mentally. Something about the combination of rainy weather and stress this week has not been good! I need sunshine!

Speaking of stress, Dan and I have been doing the Dave Ramsey Total Money Makeover and are about to pay off the second of my 6 student loans. This is also stressful, because we have to budget and things keep popping up like Dan's radiator. We spent 400 on new tires last month and this month we have to spend 300 on the new radiator. That was 300 that was going to go to the loans to stay on our two year payoff schedule. Next month I wanted to get new struts on my car, we may have to postpone that...

Back to food. I have started "paying the pig" at work to get frozen treats (the pig is a piggy bank in the fridge to pay for food we use). I have had up to 3 of these a day and it's definitely a binge because of the feeling of needing more. There is absolutely to need for more, but there is a screaming want inside that will not be denied. It pretty much is a constant screaming of "MMMOOOooooorrreeee! NNNoooowww!". If I had ever been high before I would say I needed a fix. I don't care what the scientists say, food (sugar) can be an addiction. What do skinny scientists know anyway? No offense all of my scientist friends.

Cupcake Fun

These are sheep cupcakes I made for my friend Hillary's Bridal Shower. She loves sheep. Their heads are circus peanuts dipped in chocolate and they are covered in coconut for a furry look. Michelle helped me with these. She had oodles of great ideas.

I made this cake for my Mom's birthday (That's my mom on the left). The cupcakes are her dogs Jack and Bella. When I first started the cupacakes i thought they looked more like bears, but they turned out alright.

This is me in Moon over Buffalo. I played Roz Hay and kicked ass!

Here is the cast (The husband is next to me on the right) It was a fabulous show, with hilarious writing and the nicest cast. Can't wait until the cast party!

Fun Pictures

Here are the pictures I've been promising of the candy. Overall I counted about 3000 calories from one week at work. It's mind boggling and also absolutely ridiculous!

This is the full pile that was in my zip lock bag.

Spread out over five days it looks like even more.

Spread out over a day it's not as bad. I usually grab 2 or 3 at  time and then bring them down to my desk to eat. It's not until it's all together (like wrappers in the trash can) that you really notice the amount. 

Hiatus

I've been gone for a while. I did however finish my experiment. Wait until you see the pictures! I had over 3,000 calories in the bag! I also lost a lot of weight that week (this could also be because I was sick). I've also been up to some cool food things. I made cupcakes for my friend's bridal shower. They are sheep. Then I made my mother's birthday cake. It has cupcakes on the top of it that look like their dogs Jack and Bella. At work, I've been stashing the majority of the candy that I want to eat in a drawer at work. That is going well. It's the random incidentals that are the problems. I had four cookies today. They were soft and melty. Double chocolate chip. Yummers! I, of course, was then not hungry for lunch, but started to get a headache from the sugar so ate lunch anyways. Tonight we are having pizza. We (My husband and I) are in a show called Moon Over Buffalo. This is show week, so we are out late every night and have no time for dinner. Yesterday we used the slow cooker, that worked well. However tonight we will eat pizza that the Director (my Mother-in-law) is picking up. It will probably be from Nashua House of Pizza and taste spectacular. Well, I'm off to rehearsal (first night of full makeup and costumes). I'll be posting those pictures soon!

Peanut M&Ms

I slept in until 9:30, but it was a restful sleep, the first since last Friday. I feel OK today, besides the aching teeth, headache and coughing. The body aching is gone (thank goodness). I got into work at 11 am and went straight into a project for a coworker. It wasn't as hard to concentrate as it was on Tuesday, I could actually form thoughts and articulate them. So, on to food... I had leftover pizza for lunch, I had sauteed bacon, green peppers and onions and put them on a BBQ pizza. Fan-freakin-tastic! I was definitely not feeling the candy vibe in the morning, it's partly because I can't taste anything at all besides salt and sweet and they have to be strong. However, after lunch I began to want candy, now that I think of it, it was stress related, a coworker needs me to do some work for him and it's stressing me out b/c I have my own work that needs to get done and I feel like he should learn to do stuff for himself! But I digress, I was a little stressed so some of the candy made it's way into the bag, so I'll guess we will count today as a day in the experiment. We had a coordination meeting at 3 and Bob stuck a bowl of Peanut M&Ms in my face. If they had just been a little farther away... Aaaarrrrg! I believe I ate about 3 handfuls...sigh.

The Flu

So you may be wondering why I haven't posted anything in three days. It's not because I have lost interest, it's because I have the flu. The kind of flu I've never had before, one where you can't get out of bed, your nerve endings all over your body are sensitive and there is a headache that will not go away, all along with the usual hacking cough and nose blowing. Sunday I barely got out of bed, Monday I barely got off the couch and yesterday I made it into work and had rehearsal for a show, which I am now paying for by feeling like I did on Monday. I need to go into work though because I do not get sick time and we need the money. But I am not going to be affective... this sucks.  Other than being sick  I did really well with food. I had only four oreo cookies at work yesterday and considering  how I normally crave sweets when I'm sick, I consider that an accomplishment. I've been having a lot of soup, but what I really want right now is something hard to chew, my teeth ALL hurt! I feel like I'm teething! Egads! So, I have decided to extend my "week" long experiment to accommodate my sickness. It will not start up again until I feel better. I will keep you updated...